An Angel Remembered

I was honoured yesterday to be invited to a ceremony to celebrate what would have been the 3rd birthday of a beautiful baby girl that was lost.

B. the woman i cared for with cerebral palsy earlier in the year, lost her Angel at 33 weeks, 3 years ago, and although she has 2 wonderful sons, her daughter fills a special space in her heart.

B. is one of the most resilient women I know.


She has severe cerebral palsy, her long time partner left a few months after her last son was born and she has been defrauded of almost £2,000 by 2 carers.... all in the last 3 months.

The afternoon began with a gathering of friends... people who I had met and bonded with myself over the time I have known B.


The warmth and closeness of this small band of friends, carers and family was reminiscent of what Families used to be many years ago.... before we all became disjointed and spread ourselves far and wide in search of golden apples and promised lands.

We were all given a balloon and asked to write a message to Angel on it, before going en masse to the park next door to B’s house.

It had been cloudy and raining all day, but the clouds parted to give blue skies and sunshine when we set out.

B. asked us all to read out the message on our balloons..... this was an emotional time for all of us, but it didn’t matter... we shared our sadness and our memories as we would willingly share anything we had with our close and true friends...

C. her eldest son looked up at the sky and said ‘mummy.... you know you said Angel lives on a cloud in heaven... i know which one it is.. its that big long one over there’.
As we prepared to release our balloons... the wind started to blow, and our balloons were carried off to that big long cloud....


....my balloon said ‘I hope you’ve found my Scarlet to play with’

RIP Angel x